Turned down

I realized today that I really am turned down too low.
After a week of total stress I started to come out of it and have some free time. Dena hired a baby sitter and we went of to the beach through the smoke and hung out a Mr. Toots. As I sat on the couch I felt quite laid back. Actually really really laid back to the extent that I really could could have fallen asleep right there at 10:15 in the morning. That's not good and when I get back from UK I am going to have to seriously cut back on my medication and see what happens.
My endocrinologist wanted to do this at the start of the summer but I was too concerned about what would happen.
"Don't worry we can monitor you." was his reply.

That really isn't that easy to do when I'm in a hotel 5000 miles away and my heart has gone out of whack and I'm wondering if I should dial 999. I've been there (more than once or more than one trip). I decided that this summer given the schedule- I'd wait. But I am paying the price by being out of with little motivation and a constant desire to do nothing and nap.

At least I have enough introspection (and observations from Dena) to know that I am currently malfunctioning and can at least attempt correction.

This Monday's trip to the UK which will insert me into a 3 day conference at lunchtime with back to back meetings, dinners and business drinking fills me with absolute dread. (Hope I can upgrade to 1st class and sleep on the way there.)